In previous diet attempts, I have assuaged the hunger pains with promises of gorge sessions in the future. But, for some reason, this time, more food and gorging doesn't sound appealing. Not just because it will wreck all the work that has gone into the last several weeks, but it is no longer something that sounds nice. It doesn't feel good to overeat. In fact, it feels gross. I'd, honestly, rather do something else, like go on a lovely hike with my family.
A revelation.
Almost exactly one year ago, I sat holding a newborn baby in my arms crying uncontrollably because I was too fat to fit into anything I owned and I had zero desire to run after and play with my children. My greatest desire with the arrival of baby boy #3 was to change my life--my understanding of living. I wanted to reconcile who I am and what my passions are with a healthy, strong, active lifestyle. The task seemed overwhelming at best, and impossible at worst.
But, here we are...
And I'm never, never going back.
Goal, next week: 171 lbs.
5 comments:
You're an inspiration! I love you and am so proud of you.
You are amazing!!
You are so awesome! Hold on to this feeling and never let it go. There will probably be days that it may fade, but there will also be days when it will come roaring back like an unstoppable wave that will wash over you and renew your determination and give you the strength to get back on track. Read this entry, read it often so that you will feel how awesome you are and remember the freedom that comes from being in control of your choices. There is almost nothing so awesome in all the world than to know your own power. I'm so proud of you Deb! I love you.
Thank you to all. Admittedly, it has been a rough weekend. We will try try again, though!
Amen sister!!!
I completly agree with you on the reward part, after completing something for example 2 years ago I ran a 5k, as soon as I was done I had to make Alexis's bday cake and dinner for the family, one can only guess what I did that entire day, gorge on food, bad choice, and I wasn't the same since, my mind set is so different now I'm loving it. Go on that hike you deserve it!
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