Food Fancies a la Mode

I am horribly overweight, again. Ok, maybe not horribly. But unacceptably.

I am trying to diet...kind of. I just keep falling off the wagon...like every night.

So tonight, instead of caving into that bowl of ice cream I am starting a new series of posts--that of confessing my unrequited food cravings of the day. Maybe just saying it will be enough.

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I really wanted (but did not make [and then eat]) the following:

• Warm Berry Crostada with Ice Cream
• Peach Cobbler with Ice Cream
• Vanilla Ice Cream with a generous dollop of natural peanut butter, homemade fudge sauce a la Ashley, and a few crushed pretzels for some salty crunch
• A tube or two of Bottlecaps candies

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Are we sensing a theme here? And I don't even really like ice cream! Maybe it is just the fact that I am trying to avoid sweets this month (ha!). How do people survive without dessert, I ask you?!? The whole thing just makes me feel very very angry at the world.

Not that what I did eat was stellar. It just seems a little hard right now--trying to get everything to work correctly. Having a newborn has thrown me off my groove as far as exercising goes. And it takes considerably longer for me to weigh all of the food I make. 

Alas I guess that is life. Maybe next week I will really motivate/embarrass myself by revealing my weight to the world. 

Confession is good for the soul.

Things That I May Never Understand, Part 1

• those naked girl-devil profile sticker things that men have on their truck back windows
• trucks with lift packages
• women driving huge trucks with lift packages (with weird girl-devil stickers on the windows...)
• packaged iceberg lettuce salads (with the red cabbage shreds)
• large sized bras without underwire
• facebook games
• leggings
• skinny jeans
• Jolly Ranchers and/or Now & Laters
• Lady Gaga
• female rockers (like Pat Benatar...)
• fabric softener
• any ready made "dough" by Pillsbury

to be continued...

Stretchy Pants - Hate Them, Love Them

I am food journaling again...

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And, by jingo, I will fit my clothes again. One day.

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And the little angel has gone three nights, now, sleeping for 8 hours straight. We love this little sweetie.

Baby Boy Number Four Arrives

Sometime during the first night home I turned to Aaron and told him in tears "we may just have four children..." But sitting here holding this little guy today and seeing the sunshine outside, I bet I could do it again.

We are so glad he is here.

In The Mouth of Babes - A Sunday Pick Me Up

You know, you wonder to yourself when your children are wiggling on the floor and sitting on each other's heads during Family Home Evening and Scripture Study, if they are actually listening. But every once in a while you see glimpses of heaven.

Lately, Hyrum has asked me to sit down and be scribe at the computer as he dictates his "novel." (He is quite interested in writing, reading, and illustrating things as of late.) We have done this the past two Sundays and, though it is somewhat repetitive, I have been humbled by his sweet testimony (and rocking diction...makes an English grad proud!). I wanted to copy it here on the blog to remember it, realizing fully that it reflects far more on the stature of his spirit than the quality of our parenting. Clearly.

Here is the transcript thus far. In typing for him, I have only stopped occasionally to help him choose a different word from say "importantest" to "most important." The body of the text, in its entirety, is his.

The pearl of great

Chapter 1

Believe in God and read the scriptures and the Book of Mormon. The Bible and Book of Mormon teach you what to do. Do the right things to live with Heavenly Father again. The testaments are true. Ponder and pray the things that you must do to live and read the Bible and Book of Mormon with Him.

Chapter 2

The keystone is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. The little bricks are--one of them is--testimonies. And also one of them is, read scriptures and the Bible, and the Pearl of Great Price, and the Doctrine and Covenants. And another one of them is the Holy Ghost. The articles of faith is one of the bricks too. The keystone is the most important. It is in our life. The keystone is it. 

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

by Hyrum Baker, March 13, 2011

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Chapter 3

The Church is true. Believe in the Gospel. Have family home evening, and listen to the prophets. Watch Stake Conference, and General Conference. These things are important. This is another testament of Jesus Christ. This book was translated by Hyrum Baker.

Chapter 4

You must read the Book of Mormon and the Bible. These things are the most important. Believe in God. Knowledge of the truth. Listen to the Holy Ghost.

The End 

Chapter 5 - Article of Faith - New Story Index

1. We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.   

2. We believe that man will be punished for their own sins and not for Adam’s transgressions.

3. We believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

Back to the Pearl of Great

Let’s talk about Joseph Smith

Joseph Smith went up to the HIll Cumorah and he found the golden plates, but before he could take them, the Angel Moroni came and told him not to take the golden plates.

Every year for four years. The angel said I’ll teach you in the second year, third year, fourth year. The fourth year he could take the golden plates, but before he could take the golden plates, Joseph Smith knew he had to translate these golden plates. 

Hyrum Baker, March 20, 2011

The End 

Chapter 6

Read Doctrine and Covenants and the Book of Mormon. Do you remember the keystone in this story? Let’s talk about the keystone some more. And the little bricks too.  We will be resurrected in life. In these things, you will read this real testament. Read it every day and every night. This book is the very importantest book of all books. The book will be copied ten pages. The pages are important.

Chapter 7

Doctrine and Covenants has the Articles of Faith. There are some at the top. Did you read them? Yes or no? You are supposed to.

Now we can talk about another story of Joseph Smith. When Joseph Smith told somebody in one place and other people, they laughed at Joseph Smith. The person who he talked to the very first, made him go off his trailer. Joseph Smith wanted to tell more people about it--what he had seen. They laughed at him because they went to a bad church. Joseph Smith had to restore the church, and he did.

Chapter 8

Let’s talk about some of the Book of Mormon. Alma and Amulek were good people. Zeezrom tried to fight them, but Alma was a true prophet and Zeezrom obeyed him and some people got mad at him and took him to the judge and the judge asked him some questions and yelled at them. But they couldn’t trick him. The judge ordered them to be put in prison. 

The End

Tid Bits and a Tad Much

The ultrasound tech gave us an unmistakable (read: not appropriate) snapshot of our new little BOY to be. Wow! I don't think I have ever seen such a clear shot. After sending a few text messages with the ultrasound pic, and getting some hilarious responses from my siblings:

"Wow, he certainly is [a boy]! Wow!"

"Yes. That is either definitely a boy...or a girl with a tumor."

"Wow. It has it's own weather system..."

Aaron asked, in the interest of...well everyone...I stop sharing the centerfold pic.

Hyrum reacted to the news with surprising emotion: "No. We don't need any more brothers..." Ezra was happily content with the idea of a new "brothy" and Asher flat refused to accept the inevitable. Even today, when you ask about his new baby brother he will promptly correct: "No brother. Baby girl!"

To celebrate the news we took the family out for meat and potatoes at the local diner--some "guy" food.

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Last night, I found a zip lock bag stuffed with size 6 tighty-whiteys stapled shut and hidden in Hyrum's closet. What he was planning to do with it today, I truly have no idea. But come rain or high water...he's prepared!
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I've gained 18 pounds in the last 8 weeks. That is roughly 2.25 pounds a week. That takes consistent effort in overeating, folks!

So, as a consequence, I decided to be on a "better for me" diet (like 2000 calories emphasizing fruits, veggies, whole grains, and lean proteins, blah, blah, blah). It went pretty well today until breakfast, where I had two bowls of Blueberry Morning cereal with milk. After estimating the calories consumed as, oh somewhere around 1000, I promptly opened the freezer and pounded down as many twinkies as I could muster the courage to do so. So there, you stupid diet!

In other news, despite the burgeoning belly, I am still exercising every morning with my great friend, Ashley. She is looking great. I am looking more and more like Bessy. Moo.

That being said, life is so so good and sweet. Ez and I sat outside yesterday eating ice cream (him) and lemon sherbet (me) just watching people walk by and admiring the clouds. For a moment I felt absolutely giddy with bliss.

I remembered hearing a single friend of mine lamenting "all I want to do is stay home, have babies and make cookies...is that really so hard..." I just laughed because that is precisely what I get to do every day.

Not a bad gig, really.

"If You Can Bake a Cake, You Can Land a Man"

Today is National Chocolate Cake Day.

Who comes up with these ideas, I don't know. But heaven bless them.

Wouldn't the world be a better place if we all took the time today to make a chocolate cake?

Post Script or "Mom, why did you boil the garbage?..."

p.s. Dinner tonight was amazing--Campanelle with Asparagus, Lemon, Carmelized Onions, Pecorino Romano, and Balsamic Reduction. 

Somebody really should come over so I don't have to sit and enjoy it alone while three little boys unite in a cacophony of "YUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEXT TIME YOU MAKE THIS, DON'T PUT ANYTHING ON IT! YUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Later, they had oatmeal.

So there.

Regrettfully They Tell Us, But Firmly They Compel Us, To Say Goodnight....To You

I was going to blog, but I have nothing to say.

Really, I just want to eat chocolate and watch The Sound of Music with Aaron.

I think I will.

Ezra May Have It

We couldn't tell. Though there were some moments throughout the ultrasound that we thought we saw "boy parts," as the technician called them.

The whole process, and idea of 4 BOYS made me giggle for the rest of the day.

We'll try to see it again in a couple of weeks.

X or Y?

We are having a baby in May. And everyone in the house has ants in their pants to find out if it is a girl or a boy. I have been campaigning for months now, unsuccessfully, for a delivery night surprise, but tonight around the dinner table I was out-voted 4-1. Tomorrow is ultrasound day. And if baby will cooperate, we will know our fate...

In similar news, Ezra is the only stalwart predicting a boy. Hyrum and *Asher are solidly in the pink category. (Though Hyrum conceded that it "might be twins...or triplets." [Oh my!]).

Aaron and I are, understandably, non-committal when it comes to the gender prediction process. I have come to terms with the fact that I, really, am not in charge here. Clearly.

*Asher, predicted a girl very early on in the pregnancy and even told us a name. "Beth, baby girl Beth!" he proudly stated.

A Meandering, Yet Heartfelt Open Letter of Love (Read: Not Love Letter) To Ben, My Brother-in-Law

There is something so absolutely remarkable about the inner workings of a family. This hit me yesterday, as I sat with my 12-year-old niece enjoying parody via YouTube. We laughed out loud for a good solid five minutes and then I razzed her about her latest orchestra-class crush. And I thought to myself "I'm so glad to see you! I'm so glad to be with you!" 

Only in families do you cheerfully and eagerly delight in the budding teenagers around you, the idiosycracies of your Mother, and the consistently bossy and slightly innapropriate social skills of your sister-in-law (Ok, fine, that one was me...We are all working on something, right?). 

This singular phenomenon is no more striking to me than when it comes to my brothers and my brothers-in-law. I LOVE them. Nowhere under heaven does a woman have quite the same relationship with a man as she does with her brothers--a situation where there is complete freedom to be yourself, and not worry so much about complicated man/woman communication skills, flirting, etc. You are absolutely free to love all the great and interesting and funny things about them and let their wives worry about the rest.
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I've been thinking more about brothers lately because this year for Christmas my mother assigned each of us to write a letter of appreciation and admiration for another sibling. I was assigned to Ben Crowder--the brilliant man who married my little sister just over one year ago--an easy task.

Ben is brilliant. He is endlessly informed and hillariously idiosyncratic, not to mention completely easy to be around. If nothing else, I should just love him for the fact that he consistently submits to the endless harassing from my children to play. (And they crawl all over the poor man.)

But he is much more than that to me.

Ben is a seeker of knowledge. And in this he has completely captured my sisterly heart. I LOVE this about him, because it challenges and opens my own mind. He is interested in things and, therefore is interesting himself. I follow him on twitter and, throughout the course of one day his tweets can run from current events and favorite fonts to his latest drawing and online software rumors.  (My twitter thoughts, on the other hand, generally surround laundry and toddlers.) When I talk to him in person, he often pulls out his phone and researches what we are talking about, then adds more to the conversation (I know that sounds really sort-of freaky, but if you think about it, it is actually really cool.) He doesn't talk to people just to be nice but, instead, learns from everyone and everything.
 
He doesn't really care a whole lot about sports.
He is very kind to my little sister.
He loves cilantro.
He makes crazy pictures on photo booth.
He plays the piano.
He loves good literature.
He can't truly see anything without glasses.
But with all of these, he is still very much a man.

And my life is much fuller because he is my brother.

Santa "Craftsman" Claus

For the past three months H has been compiling his Christmas list. I laughed out loud when I re-read the final draft last night.

The List
File
Small metal shovel
Small plastic and wooden rake (?)
Small metal post digger
Small metal wheelbarrow
Chisel
Monkey wrench
Small "C" clamp
Small metal and wooden hammer
Gorilla glue
Wood glue
Measuring tape
Breaker bar
Level
Real triangle screwdriver (?)
Circular file
Needle-nose pliers
Tool box with a lock
Small crescent wrench
Mallet
Safety goggles
Scraper tool (putty knife)
Micrometer
Ruler
Punch
Striking wrench

Clearly Aaron's buttons were bursting. Who is this kid, anyway?

Thursday's Deep Thought

Artichokes could, possibly, be the least user friendly vegetable. Who first looked at the blossom of the thistle plant and thought "what the heck, I'll hack off most of the outside of this and eat whatever is inside..."?

They are inordinately pretty, though. I would, almost rather have them whole as a centerpiece than go to the work of actually preparing them. But maybe that is just being lazy...

Back By Popular Demand

Highs

• Winning a local Chili Cook-off with Sous Chef H (Hurrah!)
• Watching General Conference and the RS Session
• Maintaining exercise 5x a week at 5:15 a.m.
• Developing a "almost there" gourmet cupcake recipe incorporating 5 or 6 baking discoveries (haven't yet mastered the frosting, but it is super close)
• Visiting Teaching = done!
• Spending the weekend with [prego] Auntie Mer and [not prego] Uncle Ben!
• Finding out some Really Good News!
• Enjoying the, finally, cool weather. Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!
• Not desiring dessert or second helpings
• Basking in the autonomy of the boys ages
• Bowling a dang good game
• Wrestling with the boys in the front room
• Coming to the surprising realization that I'd really like the next baby in the family to be a boy
• Planning the details of hosting Thanksgiving
• Reading The Hunger Games
• Finding chicken breast on sale for $1.25 per pound
• Bottling 15 pints of chicken (Thanks, Ashley!!!)
• Getting invited to dinner
• Loving the structure that having a child in school brings
• Napping next to my babies
• Making new friends
• Riding bikes to school and not sweating profusely
• Enjoying the simple luxury of living in a small town (paid the local doctor in cinnamon rolls after he pulled a rock out of A's nose...it's another story for another time)
• Spending most of the grocery budget in the first week...again (p.s. We need a cow, preferably lactating)
• Finishing the laundry all in one day, including putting it all away! (this is big, folks)

Lows

• Watching General Conference in HD = the uncomfortable feeling of being personally perched on the podium (I noticed bad teeth, red and tired eyes, moist nostrils, interesting skin discolorations, the works...)
• Feeling very, very tired
• Gaining weight despite the awesome exercise routine
• Eating pounds and pounds of candy corn, mellowcreme pumpkins and "cowboy mix" (shoot me)
• Eating dessert and second helpings despite having no real desire to do so (this may correlate to that pesky weight gain thing...)
• Putting away the skinnier "goal jeans" for awhile
• Just feeling very chunky lately (...are we sensing a theme here...cupcakes, feeling fat...)
• Forgetting to send H's homework with him when it was due
• Making some interestingly creative end-of-the-month sack lunches for H and, suddenly realizing that, despite all, I have turned into my mother
• Telling an entire roomful of peers that I never clean my kitchen floors (it is true, but still)
• Reading most of Genesis with Aaron and feeling very much annoyed (Is the entire Old Testament solely about procreation? And incest? Hmmmmm.)
• Making a cookie recipe from a local bakery using shortening (shudder), and throwing most of them away
• Wasting precious calories by eating some of the aforementioned disgusting cookies
• Trying to run an organization with dwindling participants and tiring of the grind
• Going to the RS Session's Stake before-the-broadcast social = older ladies, older lady food, older lady conversation, older lady smells, etc

And Now For an Update

Don Juan de H

H started kindergarten with gusto and I, classically, neglected to bring the camera. Oh well.

The Report
He's doing well, of course. He's older in his grade, plus he's brilliant to boot. (Oh, Moms are so jaded!) No, really, it has been fun to see him excel in a structured environment. And none too soon. I was about ready to sell him to the gypsies, come August.  What, with all of the deconstruction around this home during the summer--BBQ, bicycles, toy cars, vacuum cleaners--not to mention his curious habit of dumpster diving and then creating various "inventions" with, say, toothpaste tubes.

But let's get down to what really matters...
Though it has only been a precious few weeks, he seems to have already found a love interest--Alexis. And what a babe she is! (You know, that kid has an eye...) She has now replaced the "Lily" of pre-school fame. Her name (Alexis, not Lily) is suddenly doodled all over various papers and posters, "maps" and "books." It is all I can do not to barrage him with questions...

Anyway, the other day, I happened to be chatting with Alexis' mother and she mentioned that Alexis is "in love" with Ian, some boy who pledged his devotion on the very first day of class. Oh! How my heart sank for H!

H, however, seemed unfazed. When I quizzed him about Ian, later in the day, he simply quipped "He likes Alexis too.."

Well, well. That's my boy. Game on.

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By the way, I feel so, so official. A Real Mother! I have thoroughly enjoyed packing lunches, dreaming up amazing after-school snacks, supervising homework, and enforcing bedtime because "it's a school night." I know that this euphoria will wear off soon.  But for now, while the pressure is low, life is very, very good.

Grumpy Sweaty Done

I am pretty much done with it being 110 degrees outside.

It is getting mighty old, let me tell you.

Bring on the crisp, romantic fall!

Bring on the football, the General Conference, the sweaters and jeans.

Let's just skip September altogether. Who's in?

P.S.

Aaron, without you I am lost and grumpy. Please come back and get me...

Can't Sleep

I am a Woman.

I am powerful because I am. Nobody has to tell me this. I just am. Nobody has to "empower" me. I just am empowered. Nobody has to take me away so I will know this. I just am grand, because being a woman is grand.

It infuriates me when women act like this is a new concept. Or one you have to repeat to yourself or "teach" to each other.

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I care for Men. (Little men, mostly)

They have immense worth. And they can be powerful in this world.

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Powerful women are women who know who they are.

And powerful women make powerful men.

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Sometimes I feel like I am their only champions.

I Am LOVING These Mormon Messages Lately

Forgiveness

Lately, I am trying to keep computer time down and trying to play with the boys more. But have you seen all of these fantastic Mormon Messages? I sit and bawl through them all. Love them and had to post the inspiration. This is why we do what we do. The Gospel is true.

Daily Tweets

• 08:39 There has just GOT to be something interesting we can do today... #

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• 17:33 Making dinner for the missionaries. Nothing exciting, unfortunately. #
• 22:36 Finally settling down after a surprise birthday party with wonderful family and friends. Mad props to Aaron for pulling it off. #

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• 18:54 Yesterdays batch of pesto made some rocking pizza tonight. Too bad I cook for preschoolers. #
• 18:55 You know, one day, I won't have to coax them into finishing their pizza slice. Right? #
• 18:57 ...and by extension, I won't end up eating the rest of their pizza slices...and then finishing off those cookies to drown the guilt. #

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• 09:20 Morning without exercise #10. Somewhere inside of me there is a skinny gal screaming because the fat girl is sitting on her and eating pie. #

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• 06:48 It turns out that someone actually offers summer tours chasing tornadoes. Family Reunion 2011, anyone? #
• 21:23 Writing a skit for girls camp. In the zone. #

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• 08:24 I love Independence Day weekend! The excitement, the parades, the fireworks... #
• 13:48 Bought anchovies. #

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Whoa. Someone Needs a Siesta.

Part of my journal entry for tonight:

I was pretty feisty, tonight after practice, on the playground. Some annoying little kid kept trying to push E off the equipment. I didn't even make a nice voice, like any good mother would, when I said "Hey, hey kid, don't push him! Don't push him! Where is your mom?..."

Then later, when some lady next to me kept shooing E away from climbing up the slide, I finally trotted him away saying out loud "Come on E, she's freaking out..."

I heard her say from afar "I'm not freaking out"

It was not my best moment, and I felt instantly sorry and embarrassed...

Clearly I had a bowl of fiesties this morning. I'd like to blame it on hormones and call it good, but I know that that is really no excuse.

Sorry innocent mother-at-the-park. I was rude.
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Oh how I want, so much, to be a better woman than I am!

Daily Tweets

• 08:02 Last day of the month...almost out of gas...no chocolate in the house. Hmmm. What will this day bring? #

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Dear Aaron, My Birthday IS Coming Up...

Just think of how much frosting we could make at a time! 

Think of how many cheesecakes we could make at one time! 

The boys would love it...no more boring hot summer days for us. 

No sir! 

The possibilities are endless!!!

In Response...#2

What was the YW cinnamon project?

For our Girl's Camp fundraiser this year we decided to sell pretty little boxes of large homemade cinnamon rolls that we delivered on Mother's day morning. We figured that the men in the ward would jump at the opportunity to have "Mother's day taken care of..." But, surprisingly, it was the women in the community that bought the most--either for themselves, or others.


It started out as a pretty good idea. I took a basic pizza dough recipe, tweaked it by using a lower protein flour (for less chewey-ness), more sugar (for tenderness, sweetness, and good initial rising), and instant yeast (for obvious reasons).  The dough came together quickly, and we made ten pans of them right away at a mutual night activity and then froze the uncooked rolls until we could bake them on the morning of. The rest of the rolls were assembled by the YW leaders (an additional 60 pans) at their homes a day prior to the event. 


I spent my Saturday-before assembling and baking, drawing out maps, and *whipping up huge vats of buttery cream-cheese frosting--truly a dream come true! Other leaders assembled and baked, decorated boxes with ribbon and flowers, and put together personalized tags for the tops. It was kind of a stressful day for everyone. 


Not everything went as planned. I had to lower my food standards and make some compromises in order to save us from camping out at the church's kitchen all day. And some of the girls that promised to come bailed at the last minute. Finally, in the end, I think, the consensus amongst the leaders was that we would choose a less intense fundraiser next year--though I have already had customers allude to next year's event.


The fundraiser went extremely well in terms of sales. We sold about 105 boxes, made over $1000.00, and got loads of notes and phone calls about them afterwards. 


So, of course, I have dreamt of doing it again ever since.


Aaron thinks I am loco.


*Precisely the moment I decided that I must own a Hobart mixer in the near future. "It's a necessity" I told Aaron. He just smiled.

Daily Tweets

• 13:10 Today seems sort of blue--even though it is blazing hot outside. #
• 20:38 Swimming for FHE. Love. It. #

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In Response...#1

I have been meaning to answer some questions posed in the comment section of this blog. Here is the most recent question and answer.

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What is Mother's Circle group?

It is an official "learning circle" group based off of the Power of Moms website. In a nutshell, it is a structured girls-night-out/book club/support group/motherhood course. We have set topics for each month and accompanying articles to read and questions to ponder, then we get together once a month and talk about it.  

Initially I thought that participating in this group would be fun and interesting, but it has proved to be nothing short of life-changing. I have gathered so much strength and resolve from the women that I associate with. We are all very different, with different challenges and opinions, but spending an evening in each other's company always leaves me with a greater desire to serve my family better. 

Often, in times past, I have left a "girls night out" with negative feelings--for myself, for life, for my choice to be a mother, etc.  However, I always leave these meetings feeling motivated and validated and full of love for all other good women out there. As is not surprising, I share way too much information (and vow every month to be more quiet...) but everyone is gracious and good natured and we enjoy a camaraderie that is tangible.  In the end, we have shared ideas, struggles and strength and we, often, talk about the Gospel of Jesus Christ which is the ultimate motivator for good. I have learned that "As mothers, we are not all in the same boat, but we are in the same ocean..." 


[Wow. Doesn't that sound like a informercial? Sorry.]

If you are interested in doing a group, check out their website.

Daily Tweets

• 09:38 Turned off the exercise video. Just not feeling it today. #

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• 11:39 You know, this mom-to-five-kids thing is not bad. We just need a little more real estate... #

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• 09:49 Could really use a child-friendly fountain machine with milk on tap. Oh, and a vending machine with fish crackers and cheesesticks. #

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• 09:09 Jammin with the Hawley bunch this morning. #

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• 16:12 Came home from youth conference to a clean house, blistering heat, happy and spoiled children (thanks Auntie!), and pink roses. #
• 16:12 Now, back to business. #

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• 21:57 Spent the evening romping with the whole fam in a large blow up pool. Good thing the water comes out warm from the hose. Ahhhh, summer. #

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• 08:04 Crazy Monday no-showered morning with 3 kids, and Michael Buble takes me right back to my wedding day. #

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• 23:34 Went to the Mother's Circle group tonight and I feel SO inspired. Tomorrow I am going to just play and have fun with my children. #

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Wholesome and Recreational

I always feel super awkward reading reports of people's vacations. "And then we did this [insert picture] and little Tommy loved this [insert picture]." So, instead, to make everyone squirm (except for my siblings, who are used to these kind of shenanigans) I am posting my favorite picture of the entire trip. Pretty much sums it all up.

We had loads of fun on the vacation.

We're just wondering, now, what to do with the rest of the summer...

Daily Tweets

• 18:39 Love these warm summer nights when the boys play outside after dinner. It makes me feel nostalgic for "kick the can." #

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• 10:36 Making bright pink divinity today!!! #

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• 20:18 Home!!! #
• 20:18 Don't want to eat again. Ever. #

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• 15:14 My children are running through the house screaming "Uncle Ben is coming RIGHT NOW!" Sorry Auntie Mer...chopped spam. #
• 15:14 Just put down the peanut butter M&M's and walk away... #

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• 09:27 Last day of school and the excitement in palpable. Summer here we come! #

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• 19:38 Standing outside smiling as a neighbor walks her dog by and then, from behind me, E turns the hose on them. #
• 19:39 After her string of profanities, and my apologies, we hurried into the house. #
• 19:42 E is determined, apparently, to spend his 3rd year of life in "time-out." #

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• 10:23 Popcorn chicken and sugar cookies for breakfast boys! Mom has lost her mind. #
• 13:07 Wasn't prepared for the flood of emotions at H's pre-school graduation. (And, classically, I am the only Mom without a camera...) #

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• 09:03 Yuck. Threw up this morning. Hope it's just a 24-hour thing. #
• 18:17 Not prego. Stop the rumors. I wish, though. #
• 18:18 A great friend brought over lunch and then dinner for my family. Yum. I wish that I wanted to eat. #

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Before I Die

I'd like to:

• Be published in a food journal or magazine
• Publish a book
• Spend a summer chasing tornadoes with the boys
• Open a restaurant/bakery/catering business
• Give birth to a baby girl*
• Take the children out of school for a year and take a cruise around the world
• Teach in a classroom of some sort
• Perform as the lead in some community musical theater
• Live in a foreign land
• Publish poetry
• Have 12 kids and a reason to buy #10 cans of peaches from Costco
• Have a really interesting house with either colorful eclectic furnishings or clean and crisp white hues
• Serve a mission
• Study at the Cordon Bleu
• Have fresh flowers constantly on my tables
• Be the proud owner of a walk-in-freezer and a Hobart mixer (and maybe a proofer, but that's just getting greedy)
• Have tight abs
• Play my viola in a symphony orchestra
• Sleep in

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(to be continued)

*Let's be honest, this may just be a passing fantasy and I'm more likely to get that walk-in-freezer than a baby girl. But everyone has got to have an impossible dream, right?

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• 11:12 E has taken to ending every phrase today with "babe" as in "here you go, babe" "what is for breakfast, babe?" #

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• 09:56 I think that my parenting skills are getting steadily worse. #
• 19:43 Found my cell phone amongst the bubbles in the boys' bath. (Sigh.) #

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• 15:59 My one-year-old just walked by, tapped me a couple of times on the derrière and said, smiling, "Spanky, spanky!" #
• 16:00 ...Oh and H just told me he held a girls hand out to recess today. "Because she likes me..." he said. #
• 16:22 Dear E, repeatedly pinching me and hitting me does not make me want to hold you. It makes me mad. #

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• 15:50 Enjoyed our Waterfield weekend. Enjoyed the Shrek twinkies a bit too much. #
• 15:51 Playing go fish with the mormon game cards. "Do you have a curelom." "No, but I have three Liahonas" #
• 19:56 Boys in bed. Party time. #

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• 18:27 Bought my swimming ensemble for San Diego today! Can't wait! #
• 21:44 We need a camera. Which one should we buy? #

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Dearest Family - THIS is What I Was Doing

Last Wednesday I catered an event--a little dessert buffet at a Stake YW night. It was a first, really, and it wasn't much to anyone else, I am sure, but for me it was enormously satisfying.  I couldn't believe that Jamie would actually let me do the whole thing without any sort of credentials beyond a passionate (and often delusional) desire to play chef. 

But, nevertheless, I found my thoughts churning obsessively, and almost instantly, over various textures and colors and flavors that might make a charming presentation. [Side: I know when I have really found a project to love when I wake up in the middle of the night to possible recipe formulations, interesting garnishes, or the timing logistics of carrying it all off. One time, when I was orchestrating a major freezer dinner enrichment activity, I woke in the night to nurse the baby and fumbling to remember which "side" the baby needed to nurse on, I found myself thinking "no he had the stuffed chicken already, he needs to have the beef!"]   

There is something so thrilling about participating in the process of culinary imagination to creation--and doing it en masse. Plus having a real reason to shop at Costco is, well, glorious!  Who doesn't get a little rise out of purchasing 11 pounds of butter and 7 quarts of heavy cream? I ask you!

In the end, I learned so much--about vanilla beans, about the importance of creaming in cake making, about time management, and (most importantly) about letting people help me in the process. My friend, Ashley, spent a lot of her Monday afternoon and most of her Tuesday morning cheerfully glazing chocolate cupcakes and pressing out tartlet dough. (I believe I pressed two tartlets to her 137.)  And Aaron, one night, bless that man's heart, single-handedly whipped up a gorgeous vat of Coconut Italian meringue and helped me lop it onto beautiful tiny cupcakes.  Finally, when it came time to actually plate the food, Ashley and Mindee spent more time in the kitchen than I did. Who knew that giving up some of the control and letting people participate with you could be so rewarding! 

(Maybe that is a sign of maturing, Mom.  You think so?) 

Though it wasn't perfect, (next time I will not glaze with a modified ganache, but, instead make a sturdier chocolate "shell"), I was proud of how it turned out. 

The final menu was:

Lemon tartlets with citrus sugar

Chocolate bombes (little chocolate cakes filled with ganache and glazed)

Mint and almond truffles [because I had a lot of extra ganache]

Strawberry shortcakes 

Vanilla creme mini cupcakes with coconut meringue

Lime shortbread with almonds and white chocolate

and

Almond sparkly sugar cookies

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Me and Ashley (the fearless tart-presser-outer and grand friend)

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• 21:38 I am hanging up the toque for the month and getting back on the diet. Ouch! It's been a pricey few weeks for the scale... #
• 21:46 Happy Mother's Day to my Mom, Mom-in-law, Sissies, Sis's-in-law, and Friends! #

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• 21:21 I. Am. So. Tired. #

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• 09:23 Swimming in ganache yesterday, today we are working the egg magic: lemon custard and Italian meringue. Wish us luck. #
• 16:55 While I was neglecting the children, H took the training wheels off the neighbor's bike for him. Oh and he threw the bolts in the trash. #
• 16:57 ~Awkward neighbor moment~ #

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• 08:08 Feeling a little "under the gun" today. And EZ is feverish. Movies, anyone? #

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• 20:00 Beautiful and relaxing day today. Now hunkering down for a very intense week to come. #

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• 08:28 We bought 50 lbs of flour, 24 lbs of butter, and 20 lbs of powdered sugar yesterday. Now let's get to work! #
• 00:15 Up late hanging with the hubby and setting up Quicken on the new computer. Feeling tired (and saddle sore). #

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• 09:36 I'm going to the Costco business center today. Woot! Woot! #

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• 10:10 Enjoying a beautiful crazy windy day with the guys. Whoa. It just knocked over the barbeque. So cool. #
• 17:05 Watched the garbage can fly across the street. Today's weather is endlessly entertaining. #

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• 13:18 Working on projects with the boys. #
• 16:07 You know, you forget when you always shop at Costco, that there are some great tasting butters out there. And they don't come in bulk. #
• 19:31 I love these nights when we are all home together. #
• 23:26 Watching Blindside with Aaron. Pretty good. #

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• 15:16 Getting the creative juices flowing. #

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• 22:07 Celebrating Aaron's birthday by killing him at Scrabble. Sorry, honey. A game's a game. #

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• 07:40 Hemming and hawwing. Should I stay and enter the bakeoff, use the thawed beef in the fridge, and clean the house today... #
• 07:43 ...or should I go to the big city an hour and a half away and play with two of my sissies? Hm, 'tis a question, indeed. #
• 10:05 I am getting so boring. Yesterday I bought a jar sealer attachment for my food saver. And I am excited to get it. #
• 10:06 (Yes, apparently I am sixty years-old, and no, I cannot identify Taylor Swift in a line-up.) #
• 13:47 Decided to stay and enter the contest with a recipe I've never tried before. We'll see. #
• 13:50 It is simply amazing what you can do with a good food processor. #
• 20:49 Got 2nd runner up and a festive little apron. The best part of the night--H shouting hooray, jumping up and grabbing the prize. #

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• 09:37 Persevered and exercised in the cold rain this morning. I think that that kind of dedication cancels out the chocolate fest of last night. #
• 09:38 Don't you think? #
• 15:41 I think having obsessions is a family trait. It comes from Dad, I believe. I've been thinking of doughnut ideas and a YW bakesale all day. #
• 21:47 Well, obsessions often become inconvenient reality in my life. We (the YW, leaders, etc) made 10 pans of Cinnamon rolls tonight, and I fear there will be more to come. #
• 21:52 More to come = More solo late-night mass food production with the (sometimes reluctant) help of Aaron. Could life get any better? I ask you. #

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• 14:27 I think I broke the treadmill. (Sigh.) #
• 15:37 5 yr old is taking apart a bike. Me: "Are you keeping all of the screws so we can put it back together?" Him: "Mom. I know what I'm doing." #

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• 20:54 What a strange day. We all started with cookies for breakfast (and then lunch) and had way too much movie time. GP everywhere. #
• 20:54 GP = Grumpy Pants #

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• 21:55 Almost ten o'clock and still hanging with all the boys. Making soft and puffy gingersnaps. #

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• 13:30 High 80s today, 90 tomorrow. Phew. Time to start exercising in the morning instead. #
• 14:38 When did I start losing control of the situation today??? There are staples, markers and paper everywhere. #
• 14:39 ...at least they haven't found where I stashed the play-dough, yet. #

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• 11:03 (Do I even dare say this aloud?) I'm thinking about cutting back on sugar intake for a month or so. There might be some crankiness ahead. #
• 11:04 But now I said it and everyone will know if I am doing it or not...so here it goes. #

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• 07:16 Need some Van Halen to get going this morning. Lionel Richie is just not cutting it. #

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• 16:53 Officially potty trained. EZ, that is. #
• 16:53 (p.s. It is starting to get hot and I am seriously thinking of finding a summer job in Alaska.) #
• 21:03 Dinner tonight: Grilled pork brisket, sauteed zucchini, and soft polenta with asiago and garlic. Welcome summer. I missed you, sort of. #

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• 13:30 Re-writing copy for Aaron's work. "I need it by this afternoon...thanks, honey..." #
• 15:13 Making spinach and butternut squash lasagna for dinner tonight. #
• 21:41 The lasagna was freaking amazing... #

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• 13:57 Made hummus for the first time today. It was pretty good. Oh, and wheat pita bread is perfectly acceptable sprinkled with salt and baked. #
• 13:59 ...unlike the soggy pita halves of my childhood that were unceremoniously stuffed with dry leftover roast and Sunday's salad soggy remnants. #
• 14:00 p.s. I love you, Mom. #
• 20:10 Would love some chocolate just about now. #

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• 21:38 Stayed up late finishing a book about the ill-fated "Endurance" and its unlikely exploration of the South Pole in the early 1900s. #
• 21:39 Going to crack open "Team of Rivals" tonight. Can't wait. #

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• 14:20 Gained 4 pounds in Utah. Today I am pledging diet loyalty once again. Next goal: skinny(er) in San Diego... #
• 17:35 Made buttermilk syrup, then used it as a binder for granola bars. Eureka! #

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• 10:37 Love conference, love Easter. Love, love, love when they are together on the same day. #

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